Hello everyone! Boy, its good to be back. I forgot how long its been before my last post and apparently its been more than a year since my last update. My apologies for not updating.
A couple reasons why I didn’t update for so long. A big reason was that my spiritual life hit a major plateau for much of 2010. I had basically turned my focus toward a lot of different things, mainly finishing school and preparing for life after graduation. Additionally, I hadn’t really taken what I have posted on this blog earlier to heart and I ended up going through long periods of anxiety and worry about my future. Thus, my spiritual life took a big ride on cruise control and I spent many days just going through the motions and not really diving deep into God’s word.
I graduated from college in June 2010 and over the summer, I spent much of it thinking about where I was going to live and where I was going to work. I maintained a temporary job that was supposed to end in September of this year, working at the City of Los Angeles doing environmental engineering-related work. Having worked there since November 2008, I hoped to stay there as long as I could, but I also maintained that come end of September, I would have to start searching for a new job. I also had to undergo the daunting task of searching for a new place to live, combined with the fact that I had no credit history and no experience searching for a place to live that wasn’t on the campus of Cal Poly Pomona. Yes, the summer I spent was not without anxiety and worry.
Ultimately, I realized that a big reason for my lack of confidence was because I wasn’t letting God into my life. My focus on other things was so intense I had basically put God in the backseat for the longest time. After a job interview with a good company and one I had a few connections with didn’t go quite well for me, I sank into even deeper anxiety. So much so that I couldn’t take it anymore. The next evening I went to my church’s prayer meeting and that evening, I decided that enough was enough. I sang to God like I never did before and I prayed that my life be taken into His hands. I surrendered and held nothing back and at the end, I began chuckling. That chuckling soon turned into laughter and before I knew it, I went from sitting on a couch to rolling on the floor laughing uncontrollably at absolutely nothing funny. That was when I knew, that the Holy Spirit found its way back into my heart and was celebrating joyously from the inside of me on out. It was an amazing experience and I remember all my worries being washed away that day and replaced with the joy of the Holy Spirit.
From that day, began a slow rebuilding process that wasn’t without its hurdles. I’d say that my spiritual rebuilding process is still ongoing and theres still much work to be done, but its a work in progress nonetheless. I began to pray from my heart again, I began to read my bible again, and I went through many different experiences that changed my views and habits significantly. Again, all made possible by the grace of God.
Probably the biggest thing I learned through this is that God still loves me, He still has my back as Pastor John likes to say, and He’s still my provider and protector. I was able to easily get a decent apartment (which so happens to be very close to my church) despite my zero credit history. And even more amazingly, the City of Los Angeles miraculously obtained additional funds and as a result, I still have a job for another year! So yes, I have a roof over my head and I’m still working, all thanks to the grace of God! God truly is good and He deserves all our praise! Amen!
As I continue to grow spiritually and as I learn more, I will certainly start writing about my experiences again here. I also have two brand new blogs, one geared towards my passion for commercial aviation, the other geared towards anything food. Feel free to check those out out on http://eurasianaviation.wordpress.com and http://eurasianepicurean.wordpress.com.
Glad to be writing again! God loves you and He wants the best for you! Best wishes and God Bless!
